So its Christmas Eve...

And im sitting at home.

My parents left to their friends house, like they do every year, and im sitting here at home.

I was invited to hang out with the molodesh, but idk about it..

Im so exited for my trip to Siberia!!! Im leaving on Monday at 9 am :)

Im going to fly from here to NYC then to Moscow then Krasnorarsk.

WOHOOO (:

I love to travel.

I wish I could travel as much as I did this year, [2011]

It was actually a really good year! Looking back on it makes me a little sad though.

I feel so grown up!

Here are the "firsts" that happened to me this year

1. Traveling my myself

2. 2 months away from home

3. First car ticket and going to court

4. College!

5. Getting really close to all my cousins, especially Esta, Ira, Tanya and Alina

6. Being independent (car, travel, tried different church, new freinds, college, pretty much everything)

7. Korean drama addiction :)

8. First try at ACT

9. First time running 9 miles without stopping

and just a buncha other stuff.

I also thought that I met the most amazing person who ever lived. Idk if I still think that, but that little time of thinking that was really special and it made me really happy

Im not really gonna miss this year though.....It is a little sad that this was my last full year of being a kid. Before the next new year I will be an adult.. Wow. thats freaky... Me? An adult? No way......

I hope that in this next year I will be less stupid.

Im always so naive and trusting. I dont understnad that people can hurt me! I always give people other chances. Maybe thats a good thing, but then again, its also not because i always get hurt.

New Years Resolution(s):

1. Read Bible and pray everyday

how? No breakfast w/out doing this. Also, have less sleepovers and such because thats when I usually get off track

2. Loose 40 pounds

why? because I got fatter :p

How? Umm.. idk. Start working out again, and eat less

3. Be nice

why? umm... because i often spaz :D

how? just ignore things that piss me off

4. Get into University of Minnesota

how? apply :p

5. Stop being men crazy

why? because all men are jerrkss right now to me :) 

how? keep telling myself that I am more important than any relationship i can be in right now

6. Pick up playing piano again

how? practice!

Well lets see how long that lasts...........

;)

<3 

The happiest week this year :)

This week in my life has been the happiest so far!

I finished my first semester at Inverhills Community College, with [hopefully] all As!

My entire trip to Siberia [$1880] was payed through fundraisers and donations.

Also, my relationships have been really great with the people around me.

I wake up smiling in the morning :) Im exited to talk to that special person who makes my heart flutter.

<3

I also dyed my hair to a strawberry orange blonde color! :)

WOHOO I like it :)

Im spending the weekend with my cousin Ira were gonna take pics :)

LIVE LOVE LAUGH<3

Thank you Jesus for making me so happy!

Thanksgiving 2011

This thanksgiving was really great! My family celebrated it at Tet Nadyas house :)

These are my girls! They are so sweet. they make my Thanksgiving!!

I am very thankful for them.

This is SUPER CHEESY,

but heres the things im thankful for.

1. Salvation and my Christian parents. Without them, I would not be who I am today. Id probably be a drunken wreck somewhere.

2. PSEO. Free college for 2 years? Who woudnt be thankful? :)

3. Just being myself. I am finally starting to like myself, and I am very thankful for that.

:)

Pure Love

So the Korean drama that I watched last was called 49 days, or Pure love.

It was so good, because the girl had to find 3 people that truly love her. This was very interesting to me, because thinking about it, im not sure if ive ever loved someone with such pure love.

Ive said I love a lot of people, but such pure love, on that grand of a scale, im not sure if I have..

I want to live a life where I can confidently say that there are people that love me. My friends say they do, but i dont know if they really do.

Maybe I didn't give them a reason to love me..

I want to buy the necklace in which the girl in 49 days collected the tears. 

http://www.tofebruary.com/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=21&products_id=717

I gonna try to buy it soon.

It will remind me to live a life where people can love me. <3

Deep insight :p

So I was reading my devotional this morning, and in it was a thought that really made me stop and think.

The story was as follows:

A girl got engaged, and her [SINGLE] best friend was happy for her and planned her bridal shower.

When she got married, her friend was an awesome bridesmaid.

When she had a baby, her friend threw her a bridal shower.

After all of this, she said to her single friend,

"I know you are my true friend not because you are there for me when I am sad, 

but that you are happy for me when I am happy instead of being jealous"

This really made me stop and think. Its easy for me to be a good friend and support people when they are feeing down, but its harder for me to be happy when my friends are happy.

Am I really that selfish???

I always thought that it was harder to be with somebody when they are feeling down, but I guess just the opposite is true.

From now on Im going to try to be a good friend and be happy for people.

This thanksgiving when Tanya, Ira, and Alina all bring their boyfriends to the family gathering, I am going to try not to be sad that the person I love is so far away.

Im going to try my very best to be happy for them, and show them that I am happy, and rejoicing with them.

God showed me this today on purpose because he knew how hard it was gonna be for me to see my cousins all having men by their side, when my man is not capable of being by my side right now.

Thank you God for taking care of me <3
<3

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Deja Vu

So recently, Ive been having a lot of moments where I feel like this has happended in my life before but I cant remember it. 

For example, when I was watching a drama I felt like ive seen it before when I know I haven't.

This made me think about if there are some things that you don't know about yourself, that slowly come to you in dreams, or through other people's insight.

Ive had many moments like this.

I just stop what im doing and think about it.

& it kinda freaks me out sometimes!

Ah, I really dont know.. 

I guess there are things in my life that I dont know about myself consciously.

Im really curious to see what else I dont know about myself that I will someday find out

What made me smile today

1. getting chipoltle to eat and watching dramas (:

2. My dad and me singing, and his voice cracking

3. The "stressed rats" story in English class told by Professor Sysntelein

4. Understanding my chemistry homework

5. my mommy giving me a hug

1 through 17

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.” 

Year 1

Year 2

Year 3

Year 4

Year 5

Year 6

Year 7

Year 8

Year 9

Year 10

Year 11

Year 12

Year 13

Year 14

Year 15

Year 16

Year 17

My funniest moments

(:

Feel free to laugh because Ill be laughing right along with you

:)

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as heck don't deserve me at my best.” 

Korean Dramas

So Lately Ive been watching Korean dramas, and as most of you know, I have become obsessed with them!

A lot of you ask me WHY I like them so much, and why I cant be normal and like American TV.

Well this is my reponse to all of you

Reasons why I like them

1. SO INNOCENT!

-with normal TV, you cant get such innocence; everything is corrupt now days, or so i thought

but seeing these dramas makes me realize that there are still some good people in the world

2. I always learn something

-as you will see with my descriptions bellow, theres always a key lesson that I take away from my dramas

it makes me want to change some things in my life for the better

3. I learned not to push people away from me because I think its better for them

Just like in Shakespeare's time, when people were forced to watch theater to become better people, 

the complicity of the dramas makes me see what they did wrong, and how I can avoid those mistakes in my life

4. It satisfies the need for romance in my life. HAHA :)

-no explanation needed :)

So now Im gonna list the dramas I have watched so far, and my opinion on them

1. Secret Garden 

This drama is my all time favorite.

It was also the first drama I watched.

This brings me back to good memories. I watched this with my cousin Esther when I was with her in Germany. Watching this together brought us closer together. 

This story is so cute! I could not stop thinking about it for about a week after I watched it. Its one of those things that affects people on a personal level.

2. City Hunter

This drama was so intense! Lee Min Ho is truly the best actor I've ever seen. I was so obessed with him while watching this. I googled him over 20 times :p

3. Lie to Me

This drama had me in fan girl mode! The main girl character had such a strong personality, and the guy loved her so much! I hope that someday I can be loved with the love that was showed in this drama. I still think about the "fish flip" the main lead did when he was laying down. It was so cute! youd have to see the drama to understand what Im talkin about though :)

4. Protect the Boss

This drama had the cutest "mean girl" usually I find myself not liking the typical character, but in this drama I loved it.

5. You're Beautiful

I LOVED THIS DRAMA! It was just a cuteness overload. The main character was so innocent and sweet.

She was so honest and caring. I learned a lot from her character

6. Playful Kiss

This drama was cute, but I didnt like how much the girl had to chase the guy. He should have paid more attention to her. :p

The girl lead had supercute taste in clothes! I look some tips from her :)

7. Boys Over Flowers

This drama was near the top when it comes to my favorites.

The girl was so hardworking, but it was a little unrealistic how much help she got from beautiful rich men.

Well I guess its what girls want to watch!

I learned from this drama to follow my dreams before anything else.

8. Scent of a Woman 

This drama taught me to live life to the fullest.

I realized that I gotta live in such a way that if i were to die tomorrow, I would be happy.

9. My princess

This drama had the most beautiful girl lead.

I literally changed my style a little after seeing how cute hers was.

This drama had people waiting for their love.

This also taught me some important lessons

10. Personal Taste

Honestly, I watched this for Lee Min Ho, but I loved the drama also.

I learned not to let people take advantage of me from watching this.

11. Marry me, Mary

This drama was sooo cute! the girl has the cutest hair ever. Im thinking of getting a perm now -_-

I loved how there werent any antagonists here, but the characters were so likeable :)

It made me sad though that the good guy didnt get chosen, as usual :(

But still supercute drama.

12. IRIS

This drama is one of my favorites. It had an AMAZING ost, and the killer guy (TOP) was really attractive. This drama showed me how lucky I am to have people I can trust, while on the other hand showed me not to trust people too easily. Definitely would recommend it.

13. My girlfriend is a Guhimo

This drama was so good! It was my first fantasy drama, and i loved it so much! the long hair on MiHo was sooo pretty! and the fox rain song OST was really good <3 

14. Goong

In this drama, I fell for the 2nd lead. I felt really sad for him, since his fate was so sad.. Great drama though, regardless of the slow beginning..

15. Full House

Rain was in this drama! I think its what made it soo good. He was just so cute, especially when he pouted. Although he got angry and yelled a lot, i still thought he was cute. A good drama, but not the best. Would have been better with more romance.

16. 49 days

This was the best drama I have ever seen. It was as good as, if not better than, Secret Garden. The plot was absoultely amazing! Im gonna do an entire post on this drama, called Pure Love. 

17. Coffee Prince

Such a cute drama :) Very open about homosexuality. I loved how calm the second female lead was in the beginning. People accept each other here. love it.

18. My Name is Kim Sam Soon

Cute drama! The end of it was very similar to my situation right now, so I really liked it. Its all about waiting. 

Loved David Henny here. Hes so attractive!

- between here I took a break from dramas. I watched half of warrior baek dong soo and some other stuff.
19. Dream High

Amazing drama. I looved Suzy and Dong soo.. :) It was the first drama where the nice guy won. I guess they were both nice, but still. And also because of Pil sook here i started a diet :) She (IU) is such an inspiration in the drama! looove it.
20. Wild Romance

Such a cute drama! I loved how the couples were so similar. Their laugh and how stupid they were. I also loved the sexy secretary robot guy. Muahaha he was the best! the girl here did Judo and I became really interested in this. I would have taken classes for it but my dad didnt let me..

21. Hearstrings

I loved this drama. The girl dresses so modestly it made me want to buy a long skirt. Also she said she would give up on him and then he started chasing her. This gave me hope. The ost was soo good here!

22. Prosecutor Princess

Cute drama!!! The character, hye ri, changed so much throughout. She also had to loose weight in the past, which i really admired. It wasnt the best drama but I still really enjoyed it. I loved the akward turtle, aslan, and the grace shoes :)

23. Queen In Hyuns Man
24. Rooftop Prince
25. To the Beautiful You
26. A gentelmen's dignity
27. Love Rain
28. King 2 Hearts
29. I do I do
30. Goast (unfinished)
31. Big (Unfinished)
32. Warrior Baek Dong So (unfinished)
33. The moon embraces the sun (unfinished)
24. Baby faced beauty (unfinished)

Typical K-drama moves

1. Piggy back ride

2. Covering somebody with a blanket

3. People getting in car accidents

4. Dead parents 

5. Going to Jeju Island

6. When a girl is hugged, she doesnt hug back

7. Lovers push each other away, thinking its better for the other person to be without them

8. girls (unrealistically) running in heels

9. Extreme lack of jeans

10. Some sort of deep childhood secret

11. drunk scene

 <3 I LOVE KOREAN DRAMAS AND THEIR CULTURE <3